The "Excluded" Son

Just when i thought it was love
i was proven wrong
that instant she gave more attention to my other brother
she had a favorite son and that son aint me
i dont know why or what it is
but i know that im not what she wants me to be
i try hard to earn her trust, nothing works
each attempt to gain her trust results in failure
a son who cant please his mother
the very thought of that hearts

our mother-son relationship
STRAINED
she didnt raise me, and to think i could win her love
INSANE
i guess i have no one but myself
to BLAME

to make matters even worse
my own father dont even like me

our father-son relationship
GONE
the love and attention i get from him
NONE

i get treated like a complete stranger
bet they wouldnt even help me if my life was in jeopardy
DANGER

never FAIR
if i wanted help, they'll look at me with a blank face
just STARE

and to think i thought it was love
NOT
i was wrong, my mind is heated
HOT

i feel lost as if i was never born
BANNED

right now at this very moment, tears begin to stroll down my cheeks
CRYING

Bad Dream

a world beyond my own
im prone to being alone
nobody is here for me
i got nobody to depend on
thoughts invade my mind
im stuck in the space of time
darkness engulfs me
i cant see, eyesight blind
cant even walk in a straight line
but im not walking, im floating
the feeling of weightlessness
im sitting on a cloud
the air becomes pressurized
the ringing in my ear becomes loud
my eardrums burst, then starts to bleed
my brain begins to feel tense
losing blood by the second
blood everywhere
i feel the sense of panic
too much blood...i pass out
the alarm goes off, my phone vibrates
i wake up, back in reality
drenched in sweat
i just had a weird dream